Given that it’s been over a full year since I’ve followed an actual posting schedule for entries, I figure it’s about time to shed some light on the state of the website and why I’ve been “gone”. This is also prompted by the fact that my website hosting expires at the end of September.
Last year I went through a breakup with my (ex)husband. I split up with him in June, and my divorce was finalized in November. I could make a joke here about how things ended because I’m an uppity feminist who’s just out to ruin gaming and fun for people, but the truth of the matter is that I was no longer able to stay married to someone who was deeply mentally ill and didn’t respect me or our marriage. The divorce is honestly one of the best things that had happened to me in a very long time, and I’m grateful for every day that I move further away from that period of my life.
Since then, my gaming has dropped off dramatically. It’s easy to chalk it up to being much more busy in my personal life, as well as not really liking Call of Duty: Advanced Warfare (as much as it kills me to admit that). Another part of that equation is that I am not depressed anymore. When I was stuck in a failing and unhealthy marriage, I relied heavily on gaming as an escape from how drastically unhappy I was. Gaming was one solid area of my life where I routinely felt good about myself, and could interact with friends while having fun.
I still love gaming and a part of me always will, but I’m not sure it will hold the same appeal for me in the future. I have a new boyfriend (he’s amazing, also likes gaming, and has the best eyebrows you’ve ever seen on a human being) and we do game together occasionally. I’m hopeful that when the new CoD comes out this fall, I’ll fall back in love with the genre. There are a few other upcoming/newly released titles I’d like to get my hands on as well. But for now, I’m just enjoying my newfound happiness.
As for the website, I’m choosing to pay to keep it running for the time being as an archive. I may eventually move back in to posting actual updates, but at the moment I’m not comfortable making any promises about when that would happen.
Cheers and game on,